Dear Zach,
I found this today, I hope this is how you feel about me, considering I'm always asking how you can deal with me and you always just sort of shrug it off with an "I just do, Baby". Things are a bit crazy lately and I can only hope you're holding up better than I am - for real. 'Cause I know you're staying strong on the surface, but your eyes are too beautiful in their strength to convey any weakness around those you love; so I'm not sure what's going on inside of you. Maybe you're falling apart at the seams like me, I hope you're not, but it's possible.
Because of that, when I found this, I couldn't help but hope it's true for you. Because that would make this all a little bit easier to take. Because even though neither one of us wrote it, I think it's still true. Or at least I like to believe it could be.
Anyway, I guess it's getting kind of late, or maybe this chaos is turning today into one of those other days where "she's too tired and fast asleep by 10pm", Well, at least Mrs. Elwood would be proud of me for finally integrating a quote at least semi-correctly. Maybe that can make up the five points for the homework assignment I was too tired to do last night and too painstricken to turn in this morning.
So I love you, hun. I love you so much that all I can think to say is that "I'm praying to a God that I don't believe in" with the hopes that you really are holding up better than I am (random song on the radio as I wrote this so maybe I can't actually correctly parenthetically site it - but damnit I tried).
Good night Love.
~ M. Rene'
She’s stubborn and hard headed but god knows I love her. There’s days when she’s grumpy for no apparent reason other than the fact that she’s grumpy. When she’s sick, she’s helpless and all you can really do is hold her in your arms and comfort her till she falls asleep. There’s days when she’ll complain about everything like the weather, people, music, or even you and you’ll just have to deal with it. She’ll complain about the room being too hot, to only result in closing the windows in the middle of the night because she’s too cold. There are days when she shuts the world out, she’ll ignore everyone because she just wants to sit in silence. Sometimes, she’ll claim she can eat an entire cow because that’s just how hungry she is. So we’ll make dinner plans and I’ll pick her up just to have her say, “I ate already, I was too hungry but I’ll still eat a little something.” There are days when she suffocates me with love. She’ll kiss and kiss and kiss, till I beg her to stop. She’ll tickle me until my insides hurt and hold my hand till it’s sweaty. There are days when she’ll claim every part of my body with her lips. And there are days when she’ll need her space and I’ll have to pull a chair up alongside the bed because she just needs her own space. There are days when her hair is messy and all over the place. Days when she’ll cry and you don’t know why but you won’t ask you’ll just let her cry. Days when she’s nervous and jumpy about everything. Days when she yells at me for no reason just to apologize two seconds later. Days when she’s a pain in the ass and pushes my buttons just to settle it with kisses. Days when I’m listening to my favorite song and she’ll talk over it because talking is more important than music. There are days when I need her to make decisions, to do the littlest things like pick a place to eat. She’ll refuse and say “I don’t know” until I give up and decide myself. Sometimes she’ll swear like a sailor and make jokes during times when she should probably be serious. There are days when it’s 3 in the morning and she won’t let me sleep and days when she’s too tired and fast asleep by 10pm. Sometimes she’s clumsy and sometimes she’s a walking contradiction; but she is everything I’ve ever wanted. I’d do everything to have her bad days, her grumpy days, her “I need space days,” her love me days, her laughing days, her clumsy days, and her happy days, because she is everything I’ve ever wanted and I wouldn’t dare trade her for anything in this world.
I found this today, I hope this is how you feel about me, considering I'm always asking how you can deal with me and you always just sort of shrug it off with an "I just do, Baby". Things are a bit crazy lately and I can only hope you're holding up better than I am - for real. 'Cause I know you're staying strong on the surface, but your eyes are too beautiful in their strength to convey any weakness around those you love; so I'm not sure what's going on inside of you. Maybe you're falling apart at the seams like me, I hope you're not, but it's possible.
Because of that, when I found this, I couldn't help but hope it's true for you. Because that would make this all a little bit easier to take. Because even though neither one of us wrote it, I think it's still true. Or at least I like to believe it could be.
Anyway, I guess it's getting kind of late, or maybe this chaos is turning today into one of those other days where "she's too tired and fast asleep by 10pm", Well, at least Mrs. Elwood would be proud of me for finally integrating a quote at least semi-correctly. Maybe that can make up the five points for the homework assignment I was too tired to do last night and too painstricken to turn in this morning.
So I love you, hun. I love you so much that all I can think to say is that "I'm praying to a God that I don't believe in" with the hopes that you really are holding up better than I am (random song on the radio as I wrote this so maybe I can't actually correctly parenthetically site it - but damnit I tried).
Good night Love.
~ M. Rene'